One day about three weeks ago, I hit the wall. The crescendo
of chaos had hit the climax. I was done! Sh*t had to go and guess what? BOOM!!!!
Gone!!!
The next day was a Monday morning, I had planned to start a
10-day juice fast that morning so I got up and I juiced. While sipping on some
lovely pineapple, mango, carrot juice, I resigned from two volunteer positions,
put another on hold until I could figure out how to fit it into my life, and
then set some priorities to finish work committed to two other organizations so
I could bid them adieu as well. I tried to work but it wasn’t happening. At
lunchtime, I decided I had better things to do, so I told my boss I’d see him
tomorrow. I then went home juiced some more. While sipping on some lovely kale,
cucumber, and apple juice, I went on-line, picked out the car I had wanted to
buy for the last four years, drove to the dealership and traded in my
9-year-old car with more than 150K miles on it, a leaky sunroof, and a check
engine light that kept wanting to stay on not matter how much the repairs cost
me. I drove away in my shiny new car with bells and whistles, because I wanted to!!! On my way home, I stopped at
the salon and cut off all my hair. I got home around 7 and basically, I juiced.
And while sipping on some lovely tomato, cucumber, zucchini juice, I dragged a
bunch of boxes and bags from around the house to the basement to be donated.
All this happened two-days after the full moon. I harnessed
the power of the waning moon and took this opportunity to purge, to detox, and to
cleanse. More items were added to the donation pile, people that drained me
where given the heave-ho, more commitments were wrapped up. Life was getting lighter. I made it through my juice fast (a future post will be about
how amazing that experience was!). I ended this period of purging with a mini-vacation
to visit the place of my birth. I reconnected with family and old friends, and
spent time with the spirits of the land and my ancestors. I also had to deal
with some heavy family issues that are ongoing, but it was clear what I had to
do and what my role was. I felt that I added some value and comfort to my
family’s situation. For the first time in the 12 years I’ve been living in
Maryland, I returned from the long drive relaxed and refreshed, though maybe
that has to do partially with the new shiny car and its cozy bucket seats and the smooth
ride.
I’ve been back for just over a week and I see now that I also have more clarity and a heightened
awareness of what is good and what is bad in my life. Now that the layers of
toxins have been removed from my all my bodies, I’m more sensitive. I react
more quickly because it’s easier to see and sense. It’s like a dusty coffee table. When you clean
it off, it’s nice and shiny. Then you notice a speck of dust here and there until
it’s just dusty, though it keeps gathering dust. When you finally clean it off, you realize
how thick the layer had become. Well, whether it’s ingesting dairy or hearing someone else’s ill-intentioned
words, things that are toxic to any one of my bodies now are immediately
noticeable and I can deal with them before they stick around and weigh me down again.
Right now, I’m clean and shiny, and I intend to stay that way!
There is more that needs to go, but I’m also rebuilding,
which is helping me set priorities on what else needs to be purged, as well as
what should remain and what I need to add to make my life full. I’ve known for
a while that I give too much. Now it is clear that I can no longer do that and
remain strong and vibrant. I still love to help people, but I need to make sure
I replace what was given with energy that serves me.
I use the word shiny a lot in this post. I like shiny. Shiny
is good. May we all dig deep and get rid of what doesn’t serve us. May be all
find what makes us shine.
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